THE CYCLE OF THE SOUL
Part II
The Spiritual Life

Jozef Rulof

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© 2014 'De Eeuw van Christus'

Those people were not themselves anymore. Pitiful, it all was very pitiful what I saw. The one sought himself, the other life, and an other God, while thousands more did not know where to begin. But every human being searches and will continue to search until he finds out. I too was a searcher for I wanted to get to know life, my life on earth and the lives Emschor had spoken about. Ah, I had so much to ask and forgotten so much. For instance he would have been able to clear up for me how I got my feeling for art. However, I would ask Emschor when he returned again. Here in this place of horrors I experienced that human beings on earth worked themselves downwards ever deeper, so that making any progress was out of the question.

I wanted to go further, but where would I go? I began to feel that I should return and obeyed that inner urge by making my way back to my cell. Here I would start with examining everything, something told me that I was supposed to do that.

Above me were the window bars from which I had hung. I now felt myself sinking away into an other world. I let myself go and saw the earth and everything else disappear, but I still remained fully conscious of everything around me. What was that? Did I see right? There, hanging from the bars, I saw my material body with myself hanging beside it. I was being connected with the past and suddenly I knew what he had meant when he told me that I must go on and follow that road. The peace and silence from that world descended in me and I saw that my corpse was being taken away. I now also saw the people who had buried me. What I observed here was a miracle. The past was exposed to me and became reality again. What I saw had happened once. I followed my own corpse outside. We went down the small passage and climbed the steps. Outside I saw more people who walked ahead of us. There in front of me I saw the grave and they laid me in it. To watch my grave from the spirit world was something extraordinary. The bearers who had carried me went away, two others closed it off and Lantos Dumonché was forgotten.

On the edge of my grave I sat down and thanked the invisible power for this scene of a century ago. Mighty, I thought, are the powers of people who have reached the higher spheres of which he spoke. I bowed my head, for at this moment I felt myself very insignificant and small. These powers I wanted to acquire, I must possess them. I took a look into my own life, through him who had those powers. He was the connection with still other beings. I understood that this needed even greater and much mightier powers than he and I possessed. This was a wonder and a problem. Yet, now that I knew how it had happened, I accepted and I did it gladly. Again I had returned to the silence of my grave. Here I sat thinking anew and feeling anew.

‘How mighty, dear leader’, I said very loud, ‘is everything that has been shown me. I thank you, I thank you very warmly.’

It had to be experienced to believe it, for it happened a very long time ago. Long, very long ago, yet now it was so very near. I just could not think enough about that. I would have liked to stay here, to rethink it again and again; that’s how wondrous it struck me. Nothing could be destroyed, the events that had happened could be re-awakened and recalled.

Here I had fought a horrible battle. Here I had felt a fear and horror as is unknown to earth. Here I had been torn apart and unravelled. Here I had put myself because I had harmed others, something I did not even know. How deep it all went.

Here I had spoken with Roni, which had also been very strange for me. Would I be able to speak with him again? From where did he come? Did he come out of the depth, out of this silence? He had been awakened, but how?

I looked again at my earthly garment. There lay my skeleton, it belonged to me once. How insignificant is that earthly garment and how mighty is the spiritual one. I was a great marvel myself. This marvel was now looking down on that trivial one there below. I did not understand or even know myself. But that one was decayed, there was nothing left of it.

How great is God Who knows all this beforehand. There was something here, as I clearly felt, that put the human being who lived here to sleep. If I would go down deeper, that sleep would swallow me up, at the same time I felt that it would not happen and yet that sleep lay already in me. I only had to take one more step and I would be asleep. This was a strange feeling! Life on this side was a life filled with wonders. Many secrets were here and the one secret was even deeper than the other. I understood at last that only Emschor could explain it to me, but I would wait.

It grew very quiet in me. Did I feel correct? I thought I felt the voice of my master. It was still far away, but his voice was coming closer and closer to me. This slowly coming closer was also quite a miracle, but I understood it fully. It was the master tuning in. I was now being connected with him and then new things would be explained to me.

When the voice was clearly audible I heard: ‘At the edge of your grave I come to you, Lantos. You now live in the world of the unconscious. Deeper down and you would fall asleep. He who enters this sleep shall and must return to earth. Listen well and I’ll explain it to you. Here you arrived and experienced the decay of your earthly body. More than a century has passed since. When you had experienced the total decomposition, you fell asleep. That sleep happened because you had taken your own life.

But everyone from earth who enters into our life will fall asleep. For some that sleep lasts very long, for others it is short, that depends upon your inner life. They who have lived a spiritual life will have a short sleep, for they are inwardly awake and have love. But others who know nothing about this life will fall asleep, until they return to themselves and they will sleep again and again, until they are ready to enter the spiritual spheres.

Therefore your sleep was so deep, because you had neither a belief nor love for a God. You had to learn all this. I am telling you this, because you must not think that others have done this to you. Your sleep then was a spiritual sleep that meant spiritual poverty. You possessed nothing that could wake you up and you had to experience that. Therefore also you were all alone, nobody could help you.

The woman you met on your journey, and as you have already sensed, a suicide, could not be helped. I let you feel that and connected you with her, which enabled you to seize up this life and in this way accept your own grief and all your struggle. You took up your own cross, because you knew that you had to carry it.

As I told you before, all who enter here fall asleep. But those who end their own lives are trying to break a law of nature that, however, is unbreakable, for that law means life and life cannot be destroyed, for life is God. Those disharmonic vibrations generate this sleep. Those who die in the normal manner will also sleep. No being can escape it; no being is so strongly conscious of our life that he is on the same moment of his death on earth awake and can stay awake. The body of the spirit has to assimilate this and that is you, yourself. That is man, that is life. Now I shall tell you about the world of the unconscious. Try to follow me.

A while ago you felt that sleep was overtaking you. I went down deeper with you for I wanted you to feel this. There in that world lives your friend Roni. The masters awoke him, so that you could speak with him. This waking him up has a purpose, because we shall return here one day and then you will experience other wonders. Just now you were able to observe your own life and saw yourself being carried to this place. That is the past and the conversation with your friend Roni also belongs to the past. But that lies hidden deeper in this life and in this situation only the masters can make the connection.

This sphere, this world then corresponds with the earth. It is the connecting world in which human beings – that is the soul – live, who will return to earth. From here the soul comes back into a material body and is the ‘life’ that animates this body. That is being born on earth. The soul who has now entered this world may have to wait centuries before being attracted again on earth. That is God’s will and those are God’s holy laws, that cannot be changed or influenced by man or spirit. Millions of beings have entered here, but all those beings, those souls, which are people, were born and have died on earth. After their death they enter here and will and have to return till they have finished their cycle on earth. They all return to earth with a set purpose.

It will be obvious to you that the life that brings the material body to animation comes from the universe and in particular from this sphere. This therefore is the world of the unconscious. The soul who returns to earth is unaware of his former life. I could also call this sphere the world of the embryo, because the embryo is being animated from here. You will experience all this at a future date when we return here and you will have reached the spheres of light.

Wherever a person on earth may find himself, he can only be fathomed by those who have reached the highest spheres of light. Most of them can tune themselves into that life, as happened to you and your friend. That waking up you will also experience. The human being who returns to earth follows the law of cause and effect. Thus, causes and effects, being born on earth and the return to this world. When the soul has completed its cycle on earth it will proceed in this life and try to reach the highest spheres. However, all this is for later when you have acquired the strength for it, only then I can make it clear to you. Now you may ask me questions.’

I had listened attentively and queried: ‘Do I have to go back to earth?’

‘You will undergo the material process.’

‘What purpose does it serve?’

‘To convince the people on earth of our life and to make them cognizant of all this.’

‘But I’ll be born then?’

‘No, you will return before that happens.’

Extraordinary, I thought. After which I heard: ‘You shall learn these wonders, for they belong to our work. It is my and your task, as you will find out later. Great happiness will await you.’

‘Does my friend Roni go back?’

‘He has to go back to earth and live there.’

‘What for?’

‘That too you will know.’

‘He told me that he would see Marianne. Do you know anything about that?’

‘I know that and it will happen. It is a law.’

He and not I, I thought.

‘They both’, I heard say, ‘have to make amends, let this be sufficient.’

‘Thus Marianne lives already in this world?’

‘She is here.’

‘Have I lost her?’

‘No, on the contrary, she is and will remain yours.’

‘Do you know that for certain?’

‘I do know, Lantos, accept it. You are one and will remain one, but the cause of this situation I can only explain later.’

‘Am I especially privileged that I receive all these experiences?’

‘No, everyone who enters here will be made aware of his life and its cycle. I am doing work here and as I already told you, I want to convince you of the existence of this life. I shall help and support you, but in its place you give me your trust and submit to everything. Thus it belongs to my work.’

‘Has every human being a guardian spirit?’

‘Everyone will find in this life him or her who provides support to the one newly passed over to familiarize him with this life. It is not possible otherwise to free you of your earthly life. I too have been helped in a similar way and will always remain grateful for that. Understand that we know each other, that our souls are joined and remain connected. We are one, others are one, and therefore we work together for one goal and that is to free you from your earthly train of thought. You follow your way and I follow you and I do great work by helping you, but you help me, because at some future time you will be given the opportunity to pass this on to the earth.’

‘Is that possible?’ I asked.

‘You will see it happen.’

‘How enormous that is.’

‘It is God’s will, Lantos, that this shall happen.’

‘Are my parents here also?’

‘Yes, and they too will go back to earth.’

My God, I thought, who will know You?

Upon which Emschor said: ‘Some day you will get to know God as a Father of Love. You do not feel it yet, but it will come. In the life that you will sense lies the power and you will merge with it. Only then when you have entered the spheres of light and His holy Love will give you joy, will you be thankful and feel a holy awe for Him, Who is Father for all of us.’

‘What do you advise me to do now?’

‘Keep on going, I shall follow you.’

‘Do you think’, I asked once again, ‘that I will get to know God?’

‘It will happen, because you seek what is good. But first you must learn to understand the depth of your own life, whereafter you will wake up to a still higher love. Ever further you will go and kneel down again to give thanks. Now I shall leave you. Always seek the higher things.’

‘May I see you again?’

‘No, not until the spheres of light. I remain invisible to you now, but remember that I am nearby and follow you in everything. Farewell, God be with you.’

Again I was alone; I was wiser and yet I had travelled only a short distance of my way. Marianne and Roni would have to return, as would my parents.

Man, oh man, know yourself. These words rose up in me. A human being was deep, incomprehensibly deep. It was impossible that on earth one could know the human being, there it was not even known that man lived in eternity and not at all that he also could return. The church leaders of the earth thought they knew God, but these learned men knew nothing of an eternal life and nothing of God. There were no connoisseurs of God on earth. Only people lived there who were not even human. A human being ought to know himself, only then would he be human. But who could say that of himself on earth? I and millions of others could not. I trembled under all that knowledge. The world of the embryo, of the soul, of the human being, miracles they were! How thankful I could be already to the Creator of all this life and I felt awe, a heartfelt awe for God.

Was I waking up? Was something beginning to change in me? It had to be, it could not be else. How overpowering was the Creator of heaven and earth. And I was just like everybody else, godly? It was incomprehensible and impossible to feel.

Roni had been woken up for my sake, because I had to experience it. I would never have believed it, had it not happened to me. His voice I had heard and recognized and therefore I had to believe it. But Marianne was my soul and would remain mine. Was this the great and mighty happiness that was waiting for me? It would make me very happy, of that I was sure. In time we would see each other again, then we would be eternally one. This great and mighty happiness lay deep within me, my love for her, my twin soul. God was righteous and would surely knew why they had to return to earth. Possibly I might know that too eventually. But I would keep on thinking of her, even if it took centuries.

Because I was given all these experiences I was learning about myself. I would do my utmost to make those powers mine.