THOSE WHO CAME BACK
FROM THE DEAD

Jozef Rulof

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The brother came to fetch me after I had told him that I was ready. From my sphere hundreds would descend and I would meet them at the border of the dark spheres. My own teacher accompanied me to the border and he would act on me and help me from his own sphere. I knew now that this was possible for I had already learned it. I’ll never forget the moment of our parting. When his eyes met mine and I saw his great love, my soul became full of that mighty energy and I sank again to my knees to thank him for everything. But he wanted no thanks, never will anybody here who works for others hear of any thanks. Then he went back, my teacher, to help someone else.

I became part of a small group. We were first given a few tests and we subsequently had to concentrate on the secret sign by which we could recognize each other. That sign was a seven pointed star which was the symbol of our spiritual level. Those without attunement would not be able to observe this sign. So I had acquired some spiritual advancement, however little, but I was awake and who is awake is conscious and alive.

I felt very calm. Around me I saw a reddishbrown light and the deeper we went the darker it became. If I had known what was awaiting me I would not have been so calm, I would not have been able to control myself.

Of course I was curious to know where the brothers would lead us to. It was said to be dreadful. The tests we had to pass took quite some time and after that we were given a talk and several possibilities were pointed out to us. We had capable guides, many of them had descended several times and they were still prepared to do this work to help those unfortunate people.

First of all we had to control ourselves, that’s what the brother had impressed upon me before he took leave of me. I already felt that it would be dangerous there. At last the moment had come, which for me would be a great moment in my development.

We split into hundreds of groups. We were a group of five led by a capable guide. We did not enter through the gates of hell as the guides connected us directly with the centre. If we went through the gates we would be attacked immediately as the guides told us and which I understood later on. I still felt quite calm, but once we were connecting and were absorbed in that condition to accept that life, a horrifying fear consumed me and I got the feeling as if someone suddenly tried to strangle me.

‘That feeling is worst for those who descend for the first time’, the guide said.

I found this dreadful, for the brothers who had descended with me were changed like beasts. This was another shock to me even though I had learned about all these things at school. Nevertheless it surprised me and you’ll understand how useful these spiritual lessons are. When this was over and I had calmed down somewhat we strolled along the streets like on earth but around us the human hyenas were lying in wait and they would leap on us given the opportunity. The guide had helped me and others who were very upset and we continued into the unknown and bestial life.

We did not have to wait long. I smelled a ghastly stench, the fumes of those who lived here. I had heard about this too but even so I heard my heart beat and I was no longer at ease.

Your have heard all this from your leader and the master tells me that I need not tell you any more about it. I thought of you, Jozef, having the courage as a human being from earth to defy and stand all this.

All the powers of darkness had gone through me and with my group I arrived in hell. We were now attuned to this life. Millions of people lived here, the wasted of the earth. There I was going to work and stay for a long time.

The guide drew my attention to a fight. I looked and within a few seconds hundreds of them were joining in. Those who had fallen kicked and hit out until they were crushed unconscious. Even then they were not left alone, they were dragged along until they looked a sickly sight. I was shocked to see so much cruelty and I clenced my fists ready to rush forward for this was not human any more.

However the guide held me back and said: ‘Do you want to be destroyed yourself? Haven’t you been taught that intervening with them would lead to your own destruction?’

I knew but I had forgotten.

They lay on top of each other like wild beasts and I saw blood. Knowing that one lives in the spirit it was unbelievable, though I had been told at school. Those defeated screamed of agony. Together with one of the brothers we managed to free someone from being crushed by the mob. It was an unconscious old man. He had almost been torn to pieces. What’s he doing here anyway, I thought to myself.

We carried him away and waited for him to regain consciousness. The brother next to me who had been here a few times before gave him treatment. It had not occurred to me to do this myself, even though I had been told at school as well as everything I would experience in this life. This life was well known by those in the higher spheres.

Deep wrinkles marked the man’s face and he looked more like an old wild animal. How deep had he descended, and what sins had he committed on earth? He cried and called out for his mother when he regained consciousness. The magnetic treatment quickly restored his consciousness. This treatment performs wonders in this life. It is pitiful to hear a very old man crying for his mother.

‘Oh, help me’, he wailed. ‘Oh, those monsters!’

‘We want to help you’, the brother said. ‘Come and follow us.’

The wretched man looked up from his bloodshot eyes. He just kept staring at us.

Suddenly he called out: ‘Go away, go away and leave me alone.’

He screamed abuse and curses at us which would have destroyed us if his words would have come true. We ignored his outburst and tried to calm him down.

‘We are friends’, the brother said to him but it seemed that he had not yet met friends. He looked at us as if he was going to tear us to pieces. I saw then how difficult it is to convince these people of an other life. He ignored all we told him and kept shouting to leave him alone. He cursed and swore at us, even at God and before we realized what happened he jumped up and ran off. The darkness swallowed him up once more, to live his life again in the old way.

I had received my first lesson. I had wanted to help a human being who did not want any help. Whatever way we had tried to speak to him was to no avail.

Again the crowd absorbed us and in the dark corner of a street we came across another person. Did he want any help? I approached and addressed myself to him. He looked as wild as the previous one but a little younger. The brother was next to me.

‘Can we do anything for you?’

‘For me?’ he asked unbelievingly.

‘Yes, for you. We are brothers.’

‘Be damned for all I care, ah, brothers!’ we heard him say.

I saw how wild and savage this creature was.

We did not give up and I said: ‘Come, there is an other country where you won’t be attacked. Follow us, be done with this life. Don’t stay here any longer. If you want to you can start a new life.’

But he left the place where we had found him.

Now we were alone separated from the other brothers, in the midst of this pool of violence and terror. The brother took me to a place where there were only hovels and caves which people were living in. He had been in this area on his previous visit and he wanted to go there again. After having looked for some time we found the place and were in the middle of the worst squalor I had ever seen. We heard mourning and followed the sound. Somebody was in need of help.

We had soon reached the spot and in a dark cave lay a human creature. In this darkness it uttered lamentations from which I could hear that it was a woman. What is going to happen this time? As we approached I saw the appalling existence of this life. A woman? A mother on earth and yet so deeply sunken? My mind went back to the people I had met on earth with my teacher. Was she one of them?

‘What have you done’, I asked her, ‘to deserve a place like this and to have such a miserable existence?’

She made no reply. There were hardly any clothes left on her. She began to lament still louder and told us to leave. I saw that her clothes were torn to pieces.

‘Go away’, she shouted at us. She thought that we were devils too. ‘Leave me alone.’

It struck me at this moment that they all wanted to be left alone, but what do they do here?

‘We want to help you’, the brother said.

‘I know what that means’, she said and she began lamenting again.

She shrunk at every step we did.

‘You damned men, I know what kind of help you’ll give. You are all cursed. You want to have us first and then throw us aside like rags. I’d rather be strangled’, she said.

I understood that her soul had been shattered and her heart lacerated. No matter how hard we tried to convince her, it was of no use.

‘Vipers, dogs, monsters! I’d rather be strangled’, she said again. ‘By force but then over my dead body.’

For God’s sake, I thought, what has she been through? I understood and thought it was terrible. The brother acted upon her by concentration which calmed her down a little. I bent over and spoke to her. I was not aware of what was happening around me as I was too absorbed in my effort to help her. Suddenly she uttered a terrible scream and before I knew what was happening we were both leapt upon. She screamed for help but it was lost in the turmoil. A wildlooking human beast had both of us in his claws. I rolled over the ground and clung to her in an attempt to protect her. I did not want to let her go. At the same time I hit out at the beast, but it was as if a fly attacked an elephant. It was much too strong. I lost consciousness and can’t remember what happened to us.

In a quiet neigbourhood in different surroundings, away from that dark hell I came to myself. The poor woman was still unconscious. The monster had nearly choked me and I asked the brother what had happened.

‘We were freed by other brothers’, he said, ‘and we are now in an other sphere.’

‘Thank God’, I said. ‘Can’t they reach us here?’

‘No, that is not possible.’

‘Where is that animal?’ we heard her ask.

‘Relax’, the brother said.

The brother gave me magnetic healing treatment and I quickly recovered. I could still feel the terrible claws around my neck. What a frightful monster it was that attacked us. I looked at the poor woman and I felt happy that she had remained with us. She was also helped. With a few healing strokes the brother healed my damaged throat. Then I was able to think better and I felt my strength return.

The woman asked: ‘Where am I?’

‘Just stay calm. You’ll soon feel better, you are in safe hands.’

Now I had learned life after death in the hell and had not been made a hearty welcome. The woman had meanwhile fallen asleep; we let her sleep and would wait for her to wake up again.

The brother said: ‘When we were attacked some of us came to her help and saw what condition you were in. I had freed myself by returning to my own attunement for I was unable to overcome that animal. You should try to avoid that, they taught you that, didn’t they? You must keep out of their grip and approach the unhappy ones with tact, but you’ll soon learn. Yet you were able to protect her and that was not an easy thing to do.’

The woman woke up again and had apparently listened to our conversation. In any case it seemed evident to her that she had landed in good hands.

She looked up at us and said: ‘Will you accept my thanks? I’m glad that there are still good people to be found. Can we hope and trust again that we will be given help? Is there a God Who forgives? I want to follow you. I know that you mean well and I don’t want to return here. Damn him who brought me to that life, the man who destroyed me, that wretched scoundrel who ran me to ruin. Can and will God forgive me? How I have sinned. I gave myself to that animal and he violated me and dragged me down into that hell. I fell with him into the deepest depths because I loved him. How he has wrecked me.

Mother, oh, mother’, she suddenly called out. ‘Mother, come to me and forgive me for what I have done wrong. Forgive me my sins. Oh, mother, he kicked me, beat and sold me. Oh, that animal in human shape! Deeper and deeper I went down, mother. How long have I prayed. Do you not hear me? You are not able to come to me but still I know that you love me. Oh, have mercy, my God and my mother. I do not want that life any more, I do not want to go back. I’ll return to you, my God forgive me my sins.

Mother, mother, do you hear me? I was told a long time ago that I could call for you and that you would come, but I didn’t have the courage. Now I call you, don’t you hear me? Mother, do not let it be in vain or I will fall back. I can’t go on any longer on my own.’

I cried, Jozef, and the brother with me. Poor child, I thought, poor woman. I sat beside her and prayed with her for her wish to be heard.

Suddenly her look became misty and when I looked up I admired a beautiful being descending on what seemed to be a shining cloud. Before her eyes floated her mother. She manifested herself in this darkness to save her child. That was the love of a mother for her child. At the last moment the higher spheres interfered. She could now be reached, I saw and felt it. That was possible for a high spirit. When someone is lost and prays sincerely for mercy there can be communication that results in a miracle. The being called for her mother and wept all the time. This incredible scene took place right in front of me and I had never witnessed anything as sublime before.

‘Mother, will you forgive me?’ the poor woman asked. The spiritual being nodded with a smile on her beautiful face. An angel of light had descended to hell to help her own child.

‘Let me tell you what I have done’, the unfortunate woman said.

‘Say nothing’, I heard the mother say. ‘I know everything. God has forgiven you. Work, work on yourself. I’ll support you from where I am.’

‘Mother, oh come to me. Why don’t you come down from your height to be with me? Mother, stay with me, dear mother.’

But her mother answered: ‘Dear child, I must go. But I’ll come back.’

‘Oh, you are an angel, mother. Will you really come back?’

‘I’ll come back, my child. I’ll watch over you. Thank God, my prayers have been answered’, I heard the beautiful creature say. ‘I knew that sooner or later we would reach her.’

At that moment she faded from our sight. I had experienced something wonderful. She had returned to her own sphere of existence, her own heaven. This had been a great moment and I had seen it in hell. We could have beautiful experiences here too, it seemed.

We carried the woman to an intermediate sphere and entrusted her to other hands. She would be taken care of and would receive spiritual assistance. She had gone far astray but there was one who watched over her, her mother. She had beseeched God to help her and the prayer had been answered. At the most unexpected moment the supreme powers acted which made contact possible. Her child had now returned to the right road. I was deeply moved. To share this event was well worth all my previous difficulties. It was only after time in hell that she felt and realized the horror of her life. How she had suffered merely because she thought she loved someone. She had loved an animal in the guise of a human. She had followed this monster though, for the animal did not leave her alone and her own life had not been different from his. I felt happy because I had actually been able to help someone.

For a short time I remained with the brothers and sisters and when I felt fully prepared we both went down once more. We had decided to stay together. For the second time I was in awe of the darkness and evil smell. It was dreadful to have to go through this again. We strolled once more through the streets of the city which had been built through hate. Everybody feared being attacked. They avoided each other. I saw places where one could get a drink just as on earth, but drinking the liquid here would burn your insides. This was something new to me. It was sickening and we continued on our way. Nearby some people were fighting like wild animals. But this time I did not interfere. They were not yet ready for help.

The master says that you have experienced all this so I do not need to go into it further. But I keep wondering over and over again, Jozef, how it is possible that you, as an earthly human being, have been able to stand all this? Anyone who comes here will go through the same difficulties and would ask himself the same question. Those on our side who hear about hell and feel they want to gain spiritual knowledge will descend to learn all about these conditions, as I did. For it is spiritual wisdom to know all this.

Suddenly a group of people approached us that included our guide. We were pleased to meet them and I was very surprised when the guide asked me if I had been able to help that poor woman.

‘Do you know about that?’ I asked.

‘We know everything when we want to. You see that we remain in contact, even when you are on your own. I wanted to show you that you do not need to be afraid and that there are always helpers, wherever you are.’

To know that the guides were watching over the younger brothers made me feel very confident.

‘Concentration, my friend’, he said and I understood him.

After this conversation we split up. We had been in various buildings and I had already learned a lot about this life though I would not be able to find my way back to the intermediate sphere. But I would learn that anyway. That was spiritual property and I wanted to acquire that. A glimpse of the animal-like life had become visible to me. I saw various fights but I did not interfere and let them fight, for I had learned my lesson.

We carried on walking for several hours and unexpectedly arrived again in the vicinity of the holes and caves. Fights were going on there too and at a certain moment I lost the brother and was left isolated and forlorn in that terrible place.

What do I do now, I thought. How will I ever find the others? I searched and searched but I did not see the star by which I could recognize one of the brothers. For a long time I thought what I should do. Like a hunted deer I ran from one street to another. I was driven in all directions until I became totally confused. I could not concentrate any more as I was overcome by fear. As a result I lost my concentration completely and I decided that the best thing for me to do was to find a secluded place and wait until a brother found me. Then I would be safe and if it was one of those terrifying people I would just have to try and cope with it. At a corner of a street I took my position and waited. Why hadn’t I paid more attention to the way we came with the brother? I had not thought about it.

It was not long before a fierce looking character approached me at the corner where I stood.

‘What are you doing here?’

I was taken by surprise and did not know what to say, but I clenched my fists to be ready in case he attacked me. Before I could make any kind of reply he hit me and I became involved in a terrible fight. He forced me to the ground and sat on top of me. He was like a tiger. What powers these creatures had! I was no match for him, I yelled out for help and felt completely lost. Then I lost consciousness.

When I came to and opened my eyes again a few brothers were with me. I was back in the intermediate sphere. My cries for help had been heard and they had freed me from its claws. They were dreadful, those beastly people and again I had received a lesson at great cost. I had learned by all miserey, I became rather discouraged however as I still had not managed to find my way out. How difficult indeed it was to work there.

It had all been too much for me and I wanted to go back to my own sphere as I could not stand it any longer. I felt completely demoralized. I thought about it for a long time. Wasn’t it foolish to be beaten and do nothing in return? I carefully considered whether to return to my own sphere or go down again. I thought of my teacher and of everything he had told me. ‘You could slide back and lose heart and I want to prevent that’, he said. Yes, I had lost heart, and was not sure of myself. For quite a while I remained in this state of mind. But what would I have achieved if I gave up now? How could I tell about this life? I had not learned much yet and knew too little about these spheres. Many had already returned as they had not been able to stand it any longer.

While in this doubtful frame of mind other thoughts came up in me and I felt that I was helped from afar. Was it my teacher who came to my aid? No, I said to myself, I was not going to turn back discouraged. A thousand times no, I said to myself. What someone else can do I can do as well.

So I applied again and with another group I descended once more. This time I became aware of the deafening roar and confusion of the darkness. Strange, I thought, that I had not heard this when I first descended. The guide told me that I was not being properly connected. How little did I know in regard to this life. The sound I heard was ghastly. It was as if a hurricane was on its way, a combined gale of passion and violence. However, I was pleased that I had descended again for I felt strong and rested. They had told me that I had to take care of myself. So this time I would be on my guard and even more careful.

Once again we found ourselves among holes and caves. The lowest types lived there but they needed help and were quite often within our reach. They isolated themselves from the crowd and asked for help, which was something I learned to understand only then. In an other place I saw hands wriggling through crevices asking for help. But if offered a helping hand they would grab and break your hand. These creatures were beyond help. I learned the powers of sensitivity which told us who was ready for help and who was not.

Our guide drew my attention to the fact that we had arrived in the suicide sphere. I had not seen this condition before. Here I saw the murderers of the earth, all of them had arrived here in an unnatural way. Men and women were there together. They felt their aches and pains as I had felt mine, but how different their sorrow, grief and misery were from what had been mine. They lie there with ropes around their necks, holes in their heads, they lived in the most wretched circumstances. I saw horrible scenes with women, they lived in their sins and all those terrors were as shades around them, they could not free themselves from them. Here I saw people in the most inhuman condition. It is beyond imagination. Their conditions made me shiver, it was so ghastly that I just cannot adequately describe it in words. My suffering had been nothing compared with theirs. I had been as a child in sin compared to them. I had not committed such evil and was innocent that such possibilities even existed.

But, dear Jozef, they were beyond help. How much they had to abandon in themselves yet? The suicide cases are the most unfortunate on this side. For many years they are beyond redemption. As I mentioned before they wriggle their hands out to you but beware in case they get hold of you. First, they need to lose all this wildness, then bend their heads and become fed up with this life before they can be reached.

There were some among them who had already arrived at that state and we were going to pay them a visit. They arrive here from the earth in a mutilated condition and they will remain so for a long time until they are prepared to begin an other life. Can you understand that these people will need hundreds of years before they can free themselves from their misery? It had taken me even a few years. In a moment they cast themselves to this dreadful existence. With a pistol shot, a length of rope or jumping into the water they land in this misery and that will cost them countless years of suffering. This is the plain reality, this is genuine human sorrow! [ He was shown one of the deepest levels of the suicide sphere ]

Oh, I must not keep thinking about what I saw here. These people do this to themselves, for God is a Father of love. He did not want this to happen. I could go on about this longer but all this sorrow, as I said before, is impossible to describe.

Our guide and the others had gone on ahead of me when I suddenly heard a cry for help. It was a soft, painful cry which made me think that somebody needed help. I was going to try again but I would be careful. I listened for the cry again. Yes, I did hear a soft call for help.

‘Help, help me’, somebody cried with a husky voice. I stopped walking to hear better, I went closer and heard it again.

‘Are you calling me?’ I asked politely.

‘Yes’, he said, ‘help me.

I wriggled through a crevice and in a corner of the hole I saw a human being. He lay there crouched.

I dared to go nearer and asked once more: ‘Can I help you? Would you accept any help?’

‘Yes, I want to get away from here. Don’t leave me alone.’

This startled me for I had once uttered the same words. I knew this ‘don’t leave me alone’, it castigated my soul. I would help him. How terrible this creature looked.

‘Don’t hurt me’, he said.

‘No’, I said, ‘I won’t hurt you. I have come to help you.’

I had to act quickly, the sooner I got him away from there the better for both of us. He was an old man and I was pleased that I had heard him and that I was able to help him. I pulled him up to a ledge so that I could put him on my back for it seemed he could neither stand nor walk. His paralysed legs dangled from his body. At the other side of the crevice I could make my escape with him and I was soon on my way.

A problem suddenly crossed my mind. How was I going to find my way back to the intermediate sphere? I thought it over and over again but I did not know what to do. I asked him to stay calm and got my concentration working and really I felt myself getting lighter. That meant that I had emerged from that dreadful influence and had passed on to an other condition. My own body was changing and this convinced me that I was on the right track. Yes, I was sure I had found the right direction. Still it was not easy to make headway as something seemed to be holding me back, though I did not know what. Nevertheless I kept going. I wanted away from that hell of misery. At last it became easier and when I was sure that I had left the darkness I allowed myself some rest. I carefully put the man down and took a good look at him. What a sight this poor man was. What wrongs could he have done?

‘How did you get there?’ I asked him.

He ignored my question and asked me: ‘Where are we? Where are you taking me?’

‘Don’t worry, you won’t come to harm, I’ll see to that.’

The man rubbed his hands but said nothing. I wondered if he was ready to start a new life.

‘How long have you been down there?’ I asked him again.

‘It could be years’, he said.

‘Do you know that you have died on earth?’

‘Yes, I know’, he answered bruskly.

So, do you know, I thought, I didn’t know it at the time.

‘Are we going now?’

‘Yes, let’s go.’

I put him on my back again and started off. It became increasingly difficult to carry him and before long I needed another rest.

‘Will it be long?’ he asked, ‘before we are at the place where I can find peace?’

What does he know of peace, I wondered. Nobody here knew anything about spiritual peace. Who or what was he? I was no longer worried that I wouldn’t find the place as I could orientate myself and go in the correct direction. The man acted as if he had not lived in the dark spheres. I had never met a type like him before. I had seen tears with many persons but apparently he felt no sorrow or grief for the many sins he must have committed.

‘How did you get this peace of mind?’ I suddenly asked him, ‘did you learn about that in the darkness?’

I thought my question was stupid and not clearly put, but it was too late.

‘Peace?’ he said. ‘Didn’t you tell me that you are taking me to an other country where there will be peace? I put myself in your care.’

Again I was perplexed by his answer. Remarkable, this bloke, I thought. He seemed unusual compared to those wild creatures down there and yet he had lived there. I did not understand anything about this attunement.

‘Are we going further?’

Was he afraid or was it curiosity, what did he really feel?

I replied in surprise: ‘You are not such an unhappy person as I at first thought.’

He smiled and said: ‘If you knew how to concentrate and use your energy better and to think less of the people there you would know who I am.’

In astonishment I looked at him and there in front of me was my own guide. He had discarded his disguise. What’s going on here, I thought, what does this mean?

‘You know now how to find the sphere of twilight. I admired your courage and will to make progress so I decided to help you. Your life is known to me and those who are of strong will we shall support with the strength we have. Truly, I am pleased. Seventy-five out of the hundred newcomers have already returned. They have all collapsed. From the beginning I have been working on you. I hindered you so that you learned to strengthen your concentration. Passing over to other conditions unknown to us is inwardly accepting that attunement. You did not yet accept and that’s why I helped you. Now you are able to find this country on your own.’

I was overjoyed. Even though I had been taken in I had learned something.

My guide said: ‘You carried me, I taught you to never forget to concentrate on your own attunement, no matter with whom you come into contact. By doing so you feel the other person’s life that will indicate to you how you should act. To attune yourself to another makes you become part of him.

Are you ready to follow me? Then I’ll show you all the different transitions we know of the dark spheres.’

So I descended again and experienced terrible things. Down through one sphere to the next, each one becoming ever more difficult. What I had seen so far was mere child’s play. I learned to concentrate in all the transitions and deeper and deeper we descended to the lowest spheres. Then we returned to the other brothers and I started again to help the unfortunate ones. I managed to help many of them. I saw joyous and deeply tragic situations. I saw a father who had found his earthly child in the darkness and both cried for a long time. I saw children with children and mothers who in spite of all the misery would not be stopped and who had gone down in search of their loved ones in that terror, year in, year out until their efforts were rewarded. I saw heartbreaking scenes.

I thanked my teacher for I felt his powers that had made me stand all this. I had now seen hell to its darkest deepest most terrible depths and all this had changed me. I had learned life after death in the hell and I knew now how to make connections and had developed my concentration. The main thing was that I had done something for others.

When I returned with my last unfortunate creature I was told that I need not descend any more as my group would return to its own sphere. The others were not long in coming and soon we were ready to depart. Now we could at last relax. Nine months, according to earthly time, we had been down there. Nine months of misery, strain and terror. Five minutes of this on earth would seem like an eternity for a human being. After experiencing the demonic influences, I freely admit that we were all pleased to return to our own attunement to rest for a while.

We floated away toward the spheres of light. My first journey to hell had come to an end and as I said, I had become a different person. How great was my joy to see my teacher waiting when I arrived back. I need not tell you how we greeted each other. He knew of my experiences, which proves again how we can keep in contact with one another on this side. Once more I saw the countryside in my own sphere differently, all dreariness had disappeared now. I went into meditation for a long time and when I felt ready I went for long walks again. The people I had talked to were still in the same condition as when I had left them. They had no intention of changing their ways yet. How many years would it take before they would make a beginning? To do something for others did not enter their minds at all. But I felt very happy, nothing really had changed here, I had changed myself. This was most evident when I looked at the people I knew. I was welcomed heartily in my sphere by many of them and there was a celebration in honour of those who had returned.

Many women were still crying their eyes out. They were sad people, what could we do for them? They could not be helped.

I had achieved much but I was still not fully satisfied. I was aiming for the first sphere.

After I had acquired all this down to the greatest problems and had gone out into nature it was time to see the brother again. He told me that we were to make another journey.

Again I learned different transitions, we then went to the earth and after a year we returned to our own sphere. The brother gave me many tests. I could pray now for I had learned how to send a simple prayer. Before we returned to our sphere I had already decided to descend for some years.

This time my journey to the dark spheres would last several years but now there was no doubt in me. I was aware of everything I did, I knew how to make contact whatever happened. Now I would not suffer so much as during my first trip, even though it lasted longer. I’m not going into details of this trip, it is sufficient to say that I did not hesitate for a second and that I was able to give help wherever it was needed. Two full years passed before I returned. That is a long time to the earthly time scale but only a flash in eternity. I fulfilled much, being able to change much sorrow into happiness and I learned a great deal. I eased wounds and healed souls. Oh, the amount of work that has to be done there! We will not cease until hell has changed into a sphere of light.

When this period of time passed and it was time to return to our own sphere, my teacher was waiting for me at the border of the sphere of darkness and we entered my sphere together. It did not look like autumn there any more. I now had the stillness, the peace of higher spiritual attunement. The greyness I had seen in everything had gone. I spent a long time in nature, meditating and contemplating everything I had been allowed to experience. I had absorbed all the physical laws relating to the dark spheres, the earth and up to my own level of attunement that I had been taught at the school. When I had finished meditating the brother announced that we were to undertake a new journey.